Time and change

In the introduction post, there is a list of bits of information that might be useful to know about me. At the top of this list is the fact that next year I will be a senior in college.

Tomorrow I will wake up to my last day of classes as a junior. After tomorrow, my papers and tests will be done and I will begin to consider myself a senior. I have some issues with this. I have no idea what will happen after I graduate. I don’t know how to make the transition from being a college kid to becoming a productive member of society. It seems impossible. How do people do that? How do I get a job, find a home and still keep a hold of the relationships I’ve found here? It sounds terribly complicated.

The other issue is time. There’s not enough time for me to stay here, where my friends are the next door down and I worry about homework, not taxes and traffic and the state of the world. Grade school and high school dragged on, but college is slipping by like sand through my fingers. Soon enough my friends will scatter over the world, but I want to keep them together, the next door down so I can poke their noses, steal their beds and drag them away to food.

It’s so unfair that time drags through our childhoods and then rushes through right as we’ve found some place nice to be. I guess all I can hope for is another nice place after this one and that I don’t let the distances and silences grow between the people I’ve met here as time goes on ofter we graduate. And I hope for nice people in the future and as many chances to see old friends again as I can manage.

I wish I could stop time in this place where I am so comfortable.